We Are Mean
We are not going to previously mentioned 5-year-old's birthday party on Sunday. Why? Because we are mean. We don't want to. Na-na-na-na-na phblttt!!! And, his birthday was actually 2 days ago and he's having a kid party tomorrow. The party we are invited to is for family and special friends. Will he miss us? No, but of course, they'll tell us he did. Does he need another toy from us? Nooooo. You'd think I'd be past this nasty phase, seeing how this is day 5 (6?) of my period. I'm telling myself that after my birthday in February (when I am 40) that I will stop monitoring when I start, when I might be ovulating, etc. It's still good to have an idea when the dam's about to break loose, I suppose.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Things I Have Done While Refraining from Blogging
Had a nice anniversary
G and I were married 8 years on September 21st. We had dinner at a lovely restaurant, a relatively new "Wine Bar & Bistro", where we enjoyed excellent food, a selection of wine "tastes", and dessert, which we generally only order on special occasions. That was followed by a Broadway show, and some lovely recreation when we got home. I haven't told him that earlier in the day when I was out hunting an additional gift for him that I ran the wheels on the passenger side of my car off the side of a driveway where I was trying to turn around to avoid a traffic snag. At first I thought everything was OK, but later I found a piece hanging off the bottom of my car. I tried to free it (it just needed one bolt loosened to come off at this point) myself, but was rescued by a Good Samaritan. By running the serial number through a search, I've discovered that the part is a radiator support which I have not yet had replaced.
Enjoyed time with friends
Weekend before last, we had dinner with our closest friends, and my wonderful friend launched into her "you need to adopt an older child, that'll be easier" speech. I think she really only cares about getting a playmate for her 5 year old, and not about what I want. I simply said "but I want a baby", and she looked smug and pretty much told me she was right. Where she's gotten that information, I don't know. It really pisses me off. I want a baby. I do. I want to be there when he/she says first words, takes first steps, etc. I want the whole thing. My friend's been through it twice, so why does she think I don't need that, too? I wish I'd thrown in a MYOFB, but I didn't. I will try to refrain, but will also tell her if I need to, hopefully leaving the F out.
Played video games
Fiber Twig, Shape Shifter, Puzzle Express... C'mon, try 'em out! If I'm going down, I'm taking you with me.
Been visited by boils
A few weeks ago, I started getting nasty, painful zits. I get a big pimple every now and then, usually an ingrown hair. I've had an excess hair problem (face, chin, and other areas I don't care to go into right now) since I was a teenager. Despite that being a symptom of PCOS, I don't really seem to have that, and my hormones are not especially out of whack. I have slightly higher testosterone than average, but nothing outrageous. It's been a bane of my existence, but we go on. I was on the Pill combined with aldactone for many years, which helped keep the fuzz factor down, but before G had his vasectomy reversal, I went off them, partly to save money, and partly to get ready to become pregnant--hah! At any rate, over a month ago I started getting the giant volcanic zits. I'm not sure about the cause--I suspect a bum pair of tweezers that snip instead of pluck the hair. I gathered some info about boils/cysts/pimples/whatever online and purchased some antiseptic wash and tried to be scrupulously clean. I seemed to have the situation in hand, when another one popped up the other day, just in time for a job interview. So, yes, I suppose they could be stress-related, but am not sure. The lack of health insurance precludes any doctor visits, so I will just hope I'm done with them for awhile.
Spent much time at church
And G has been going with me--something that makes me very happy! We are doing a special program that many other churches across the country. It involves reading a very popular book (not including the title for fear of being linked from searches for it), special events at church, and a weekly study group for 6 weeks. I'm very pleased that G is doing this with me, for many reasons. I think it's a good thing for a couple to share, and something I want as part of our lives when we do have a child or two.
Waited, Waited, Waited
for a job, for a change, for a family...
Monday, October 18, 2004
Still Around
I'm still slugging it out in part-time and freelance world. A job I'm supposed to have been offered was to start today, but there is still not a fulltimer in place. Right now it's being done by someone who has another position, and I don't think he's too happy about it. One of the people doing the hiring is apparently telling people I'm going to be doing the job. Funny thing is, he hasn't told me. Or asked me. Or discussed it with me at all. I haven't gotten the opportunity to negotiate a fabulous salary or perks. His assumptions are annoying, to say the least. I hope he doesn't think I'm so anxious to take this job that I'll run after any carrot he dangles in front of me. I've done it before, and I won't do it again. I don't believe this is my dream job, and I'm not going to risk having a building, festering resentment toward him, the company, the job, and myself. I've had enough of that, thank you. Must...stay...strong. I have to turn this down if it's not right. I know I deserve something good.
One of the reasons I haven't blogged lately is one of my dirty little secrets--addiction to stupid, useless, time-wasting computer games. I think I'm ruining my eyesight and I'm certainly getting nothing accomplished. I daydream all of the time about my successful screenwriting career, and yet, I write nothing. I also have so many other things I could do, yet I piss my time away with stupidity. What's up with that?