OK, what song is running through your head right now? Mine is "Black Coffee in Bed", by Squeeze. I'm thankful that it's something I like (really like). Often it's something I hate, but mostly it's just something inane, like the Oscar Mayer wi*ener song. Many times it's "Java", by Al Hirt. I have no idea why. Where do these things come from?

Got up earlier than normal to view one of the fun things about Derby Festival--the Great Balloon race. I could see several of the balloons from the end of my driveway. In 1996, the first year I lived in this house, they went right over my roof--pretty cool! I've been feeling more positive today--maybe it's the lack of sleep. I've pretty much decided that if I haven't gotten a job within the next 3 weeks or so, I'm going to the agency that helped me get the last job and tell them to submit me for administrative positions, as long as the price is right. I'll probably never find the perfect job anyhow, and can find other creative outlets. It's time to dig out of the hole.

Bizarro stuff showing up in the ad banner at the top of my blog--pretty funny (look up)!

Here's my question of the day: does anyone really sing anymore? I mean without the histrionics, vocal gymnastics, grunting (a la Britney), wheezing, screaming, orgasmic moaning, etc.? Does anyone just sing?

Still hanging in there. I'm spending most of my time feeling sorry for myself, instead of being constructive and volunteering, being useful, etc. I wish I could divert my energy into being funny and ironic, like getupgrrl, leery polyp, etc., but I don't seem to be able to do that at this point (OK, I could NEVER be that funny, but a chick can dream...). It's just hard to know where to turn next. I was going to take a Publisher class this week, but one of the centers that offers it had bad info on its website, and that doesn't really inspire confidence. That center and a couple of others have classes the first week of May. No one around here wants to start anything the last week of April. Because, that's the week before Derby, and my word, if that isn't sacred here. (Louisville, in case you haven't figured that out). This community revolves around the Kentucky Derby. Derby, Derby, Derby!!!! And I live less than 2 miles from Churchill Downs. That was where I was hoping to get a job a couple of months ago. But noooooo. I never even went to the Derby until I worked in radio, and I went twice, only because of work. I do enjoy going to the races now and then, but I don't like crowds or parking, or driving in lots of traffic. If anyone offered me a free ticket and a chauffeured ride, I probably wouldn't say no, but it's more fun to go to a party, and I'm planning to be at one that day. Maybe I'll get a job after it's over. Never say never.

It boggles the mind. Hate groups. How do these people have the energy? What is there to gain in hating other people? And why? There is no justification. Here is some info from Dawn:

A hate group has googlebombed the word "Jew" to link to their site. Basically that means a bunch of their hate-cronies have linked to their horrible nasty site (it lists the Anti-Defamation League, B'nai B'rith, Simon Wiesenthal Center and the ACLU as "Jewish hate groups") and so Google is listing it at the top of their searches when you type in the word "Jew." So Melanie and others and I ask you to link the word "Jew" to the Wikipedia definition. All you have to do is this: Jew. If enough of us do this, we can knock them off the top spot on Google.

And people still argue that anti-semitism no longer exists.

I just don't get it. And it's so awful, horrendous, that many of these people call themselves Christians. As if Jesus would approve of hatred.

I've been told that I was probably better off not getting the TV job, as the supervisor is a difficult person. The person telling me this was pretty diplomatic, so I assume the guy is a real a*s. I guess I should be relieved.

New job for Hope Addict to feed on--I'm getting in touch with everyone I know who could pull some strings. I have received a screening call to check on my salary desires, so I may at least get an interview. I know from the organization's website what the position offers, and I gave an overlapping range, which is the range I usually give anyway. The main problem I see off-hand is that one of the requirements is desktop publishing experience, and I don't have a lot of that. I'm going to try to take a class in the next week, probably in Publisher, as I have that on my computer. Pagemaker would probably be helpful, but I can't afford that, so I wouldn't get much practice. Any suggestions along this line are very welcome!

This might make your Monday a little better.

I'm so tired of this. Didn't get TV station job. Didn't get called back about Admin. Asst. position. Will not have interview with health care company. Got a 77 on state position test (not having been a Business major, this one didn't bother me that much). Finishing another period. Unfortunately, Hope Addict had gotten me excited a couple of weeks ago. I thought I saw streaking in my cerival mucous. Guess not.