Well, I'm hoping this is a good sign. The whole retrieval process was MUCH better than last year. The stick in my hand didn't hurt much, it seemed to go really fast (of course, I was drugged), I didn't have much pain at all when I got home, and I never threw up, although I was pretty nauseous a couple of times. I'm so glad I took the 2 days off from work this time. I think I was really supposed to anyway, because I wasn't supposed to drive for 24 hours after the procedure. I remember that I asked last year if I could work, though, since I have a desk job, and they said it would be OK. I feel pretty darned good today, except for hot flashes from the progesterone shots and I also feel burpy, but I'll put that down to the shots, too.

They got 18 eggs, 1 more than last year, not bad for an old chick. Normally, I don't think 38 is old, but when it comes to fertility... They were able to perform ICSI on 17 eggs, and we've got 9 that fertilized normally. I'm scheduled for my transfer tomorrow morning at 11:45, but they're telling me I'm still a candidate for 5-day transfer. I'm not holding my breath, it was a 3-day last year. I'd like to think our embryos are better quality this time, though, and if we get any to blasts, they'd only put 2 back. I'm torn, I'd like to get them back where they belong, in my womb, but the chances for success would be so high if we could get them to 5 days--the embryologist said 75%. Wow!! I still don't know whether to hope for twins or just one. If we're able to freeze any and we have a successful pregnancy, I'd like to have little sibling 2 years later. I don't know which would be harder, a 39-year-old delivering 2, or a 41-year-old delivering one. But, if we just have one and none to freeze, that will probably be our only child, unless we can have a little miracle later. I know of several people that's happened to. A lady at church and I were talking about that, and she said she thinks maybe your body learns how to be pregnant, and then can do it on its own. I kind of agree--I think maybe having one clears out old problems, or introduces hormones that your body wasn't producing on its own.

I got 10 very nice-looking job search packages ready to mail last night. I wrote my cover letters as ad copy. I'm also including CDs with copy and sound files of spots I've written and produced. Oddly enough, though, when I returned to work today, there was a proof for a new business card waiting for me with my new title as part of the TV division. I though that was going away. No one has said a word to me about anything. I really don't know what to think. I'm going with the flow until I get a job offer.