Started birth control pills again on Wednesday. Ah, the irony. In order to get pregnant, take pills to stop you from being pregnant. Science is great!

I have a new nephew! He was born last night and has no name yet. He weighed just a hair under 9 pounds. When Mom told me my sister was pregnant last fall she said, "I wish it were you". Now mind you, my sister does already have a little girl. But I just hate that my mom felt sad for me instead of just being excited. I was excited! I never begrudge other people their babies, I just want one (or 2) of my own.

We go see the doctor in a little over an hour. Hubby still hasn't gotten his blood test done. I don't know why he's being difficult now. Maybe it's the guilt thing. He was married before he married me and he had a vasectomy (I don't know the complete story, he's told me part and one of our friends told me other parts). I'm glad he didn't have any kids with wife #1, but he was only 29 when he had it done, what a goofball! At any rate, we found out last year with IVF #1 that I have a blocked tube (don't know why or how long or anything), so it's probably at least partly me, too. Maybe it's the money. He really hasn't said. We never talk enough about the important things. He dated me for more than a year before telling me about the vasectomy, and after I asked if he could have it reversed, he said he didn't think odds were good for it (which at least told me he'd thought about it and looked into it). We didn't talk about it anymore until we'd been married nearly 3 years. We were on vacation in Cozumel and he said he'd like a baby. The vacation had been OK until then, but after that, it was GREAT! We really haven't talked about babies much since we got the 5 on our pregnancy test last year (anything below 50 means you're probably not pregnant, or you have a chemical pregnancy). He did say after that that maybe we should move onto adoption--better odds for the money. Of course, I trotted out the brochures on adoption and bought a book, but he never had much to say on the topic. I decided to tie up some loose ends of other things before trying IVF again. He's still not talking much and I don't understand it. I've never pushed the issue. After he told me about the vasectomy I told him I wanted to be with him anyway, and I never brought up children. HE's the one who said he wanted a baby. I dunno. Well, onward and upward...